As I get older, I get more and more introverted. What I mean is I feel a really strong need to shut the world out and be by myself- go offline and read, write, and play music. However how I’ve structured my life does not lend itself to this easily. Something about those kids and husband being around on a daily basis. I want hours and hours do to this. So last month during the week, I drove to a cabin in a state park with my guitar, prepared food from New Seasons, a blank vision board, writing notebooks, and a spiritual cinema DVD. (okay I did bring my computer but there is no wifi there). I purposely did not bring many books as I needed to concentrate on my own thoughts.
Driving to the state park, I was really nervous. I was scared of staying in the cabin by myself. Then I thought to myself, “Kim, get a grip! If Cheryl Strayed hiked hundreds of miles by herself across the Pacific Crest Trail by herself (her book is called Wild) I can stay one measly night by myself in a cabin!” Thanks Cheryl for the inspiration! It was dark when I arrived and I hadn’t reserved a cabin ahead of time because I had procrastinated so long that I couldn’t reserve it the night before. So I knocked on the camp host’s door of the RV. A very friendly man got me all set up with a cabin. Turns out, I wasn’t scared at all and it was pure bliss.
The cabins beside me were empty so I played my guitar and sang loudly. It was awesome! I went on a hike the next day in the cool crispy sunshine. I wasn’t scared and I was happy.
I loved the experience so much that I want to make it a monthly jaunt.
How have you filled your introvert cup?
Just be,
Kim